Only Time

A Passage Full of Quotes.

Yes, there is a nirvana: it is in leading your sheep to a green pasture, and in putting your child to sleep, and in writing the last line of your poem. - Kahlil Gibran

So....

is it true?

Is the true path to happiness and peace through the simple things in life?

It seems that we're taught this through out our whole lives, people are always coming up to you and telling you to "stop and smell the roses" or to "take your time".

But then again, those same people tell that "life is short" and that in order to succeed you must keep going.

Some people are....not lazy....but, slower in their approach to life.

Others thrive on controversy and and on a fast paced life.

I guess that, like all other things, enjoying the simple things in life, and taking you time, stopping to smell the roses, and other such things, are best taken in moderation.

Afterall, too much of a good thing is, well, a bad thing (or so I've heard....and so I believe).

Now a days, you can't really afford to take life lightly, and if you try to, then people will eat you up.

But...trying to make a living is no reason to not take a break and appreciate things like family, or a beautiful day. Doing it too much will depretiate the pleasure of being able to do it.

I believe that life should be lived in balance.

You need to get angry every now and then, it's good for you (!) but having a bad temper and flaring up at every little thing is not good for you.

I think you should always forgive people when they trespass against you, but don't always forget those sins. "Fear the goat from the front, the horse from the rear, and the man from all sides." - Russian Proverb

Yes, life should be lived in balance.

Yin and yang, good and bad, dark and light, salt & pepper.

Then again, I'm a bit of a cynic when it comes to life, so if I was you, I wouldn't take my words to heart.

THINK FOR YOURSELF

"So little trouble do men take in search for the truth; so readily do they accept whatever comes first to hand." - Thucydides

That's very important to me. That people think for themselves. As Confusius said, "He who learns but does not think is lost. He who thinks but does not learn is in great danger."

Hum de dum....thinking....

Ok, so let me think about something serious to type about. I really don't like going on about nonsense. Unless I'm trying to find a way to ease boredom or to busy my hands.

You know what they say:

"Idle hands are the devil's tools"

Although personally, I don't agree with that, not completely anyways....I was thinking about this and I believe that it's the idle mind that is Satan's greatest tool.

That probably sounds a lot deeper than it really is though. I mean, anybody can think up something as simple as that.

Most times, poeple don't want to, or believe themselves incapable of thinking about the profound.
The biggest question I guess is where to start.

On a skip from my mind...Humans are naturally selfish creatures, it's to be expected really. It's kind of like a survival instinct. At the beginning of time, you had to take what you could get, when you could get it. If there was food easily available, go get it, and it stands to reason that more that one person would go for the same thing more than once, the result of course being, fighting. There wouldn't be enough to go around for everyone, people were too premative or too desperate too really want to share anyways. Therefore, only those selfish and strong enough to fight for everything they needed would suvive. See what you need, take it!

And of course, as there were more luxurious things, or pretty things coming into play (like rocks or shells [just kidding]) that philosophy would change to see what you want and take it .

People are selfish and have been for ages;

the only right law is the one that benifits them

the only true justice is the one that sides with them

the only rightful king, is the one they put there themselves



People will never truelly be satisfied.



I'm doing it again...rambling that is....

Well, there 's not really much to be said. And I don't like to waste time at all.

That's really a bit hypocritical of myself though, because I do waste time. I don't like to, but man am I lazy.

(And here I go about to contradict myself again but....) I DID 90 PUSH-UPS LAST NIGHT!!!!

YES!

go me !

hahaha

I usually do about 70 at night, but, I wasn't tired when I got to 70 last night so I kept going, and then at 86 I started to slow down but I was determined to make it to 90. Which I did. So yay! ^^

I really must stop contradicting myself. I do it all the time. I can never say or think anything without some small annoying voice in the back of my head pointing out every flaw in anything I say or think. I'm constantly arguing points back and forth in my head. It does help me see issues from both sides, and I guess it keeps me fair whenever I'm mad at someone and helps me forgive them easier.

But dad-gum (!) if it isn't incredibly annoying!!! (and shut-up, I know I spelt incredably wrong, both times)

I'm not sure about the point of this entry

Well, I was......doing nothing really last night. But then the urge to get up and write came down upon me, so that's what I did. And I realized something, well, not realy realized because on some level I was always aware of doing it on some sub-level of my consciosness, but I'm rambling. What I "realized" I had been doing is that, when writing, I was writing in a rather paranoid fashion. I've always written as if I expected someone else to end up reading my thoughts, and so I've never really written anything too deep, ot too telling, and furthermore, I found myself constantly trying to explain my thoughts, why I felt whichever way I felt about whatever particular topic I was writing about. Of course, I had always been aware I was doing this, but it never really occured how...paranoid...such an action is. I know that that is one of the reasons I've never been able to write in a journal.

Although...I once had a journal on my computer where I was completely able to let everything out. Then I'd save the file and move it into the recycle bin. Of course, I had typed in big letters across how no one but me should read this and I threatened anyone who did betray my trust in such a way that they'd suffer in ways unimaginable (!).

>.<

Okay, so I admit it, haha, I'm a completely paranoid being.

But really, everybody is paranoid on some basic level. Everyone's always afraid of being caught doing something weird, inappropriate, unexpected (sp?), ect..ect..and the list goes on.
And it's basic human nature to want to look your best and be appreciated. Although, I think I don't care so much as that. Nope, I'm more into keeping to myself , having my privacy. I don't really care a bit what others think about me, just as long as I don't have to explain myself to them. It's much easier to say that you're fine then to say something is bothering you and then have people hounding you constantly and asking you what's wrong.
Feh.
I've never been any good at writing introductions or conclusions. Once I get writing I do pretty good, but the beggining and ending have always been the most tedious part of writing for me.
So, Don't feel offended if I don't bother to write an ending to my entries and instead stop
abrupt--

Hello. Enjoy reading about whatever I happen to be typing about. This one entry itself is just another one of my many experiments on what I can and can't do on blogspot. Wouldn't it just be lovely if I had it in me to just keep writing and writing and writing and writing and........................................no I'm joking. I agree that if this thing went on forever it would be really annoying, by the way, I know this thing is going to be moved down further on the page eventually, so if you happen to want to read this from the beginning but catch it in the middle, refreshing the page should help. As if you probably couldn't figure that out yourself. But then again, sometimes people over think a situation and when that happens, they miss the simpler answer. I do that sometimes in math. I guess that technically (I know I probably spelt that wrong) but still, I could make this into one of those rather funny, but extremely annoying things that go on forever and never seem like they'll end. you know I could start counting: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 112060 OK. so I skipped a few numbers, writing one of those things would annoy me as much as reading it would annoy you. I'm sure that sounds a bit....hypocritic (?) (I don't know, not quite the word I was looking for) Still, I'm sure everyone is sick and tired of reading this, either that or their tired of me assuming to know them so well as to say that I know that they're sick and tired of reading this. I don't know, you could be different and actually enjoy reading all of this mindless babble from a tired teenager who truthfully has nothing better to do except sleep and who actually probably should be asleep seeing as it's 10:38 pm. Haha, anywho... 1 2 3 Just kidding. Yeah...Well, I've already written two other blog entries tonight. One of them I think is actually pretty good, I ramble in it, but that's because thoughts were just coming out while I wrote there isn't anyreal order to it. But still, if you can organize it in your own mind, it might prove a bit interesting, more interesting than you might find this one anyways. I wonder what'll happen if I press "enter" and start a new paragraph....only one way to find out right? ()
Well I did it, but now I'm going to have to wait forever just to see if anything actually happens. All wel, it's not like I really have anything better to do. Sooooo.....................................BYE! ^.^
Yay guess what something interesting did happen, you'll be able to read it now, hahaha, you'll figure it out, just watch, oh yeah, and
DON'T READ AHEAD, KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE TOP LINE TILL YOU GET TO THIS PART!!!
hahahaha
What fun!

Alas, it didn't work.

I do believe that the title says it all. My last entry was (overall) to test backgrounds....all well...back to the drawing boards.
I'd just thought that I'd admit that I've lost this battle, but, at the risk of sounding cliche, I wanted to say I've yet to lose the war. ;)

I think I've fixed it!

If you read my last blog entry, you might recall that I mentioned how I liked writing in black, but how that color never shows up on because of the dark blue color of my blog background.
Well, I also wrote about how I thought that I could fix that, this blog is just, really, me experimenting with adding a background html to the...(not sure how to explain it...but I'm sure many people know what I'm talking about.....Actually, many people probably think me mentally diasabled for not thinking of doing this earlier. haha.)
Anywho, if this does work, then it will open up a lot of oppurtunities (my gosh my spelling sucks, I'm sure of it) for future blog entries.
Yay me right?
Haha, anyways.......*sigh* there really isnt much to do or talk about (yes I know i should have put one of these ' in the word isn't, but while I can write this long explanation explaining that I should have done it, I'm too lazy to actually go back and fix it. Go figure huh? I don't know, maybe, nvm, I....nvm.
Hmmm....
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Well, I guess that it's really too late at night to write/type either an amazing or inspiring blog, right? I did type one of those before. I liked it, would have liked to keep it, but I don't like opening, to people I know anyways, especially, and, there were just too many thoughts and feelings in it and while... I don't know....anyways, that was back before I had discovered the "draft" button, so I deleted it instead.
Talk about pshyco..haha..losing a piece of work that you were fond of and spent a long time writing and in which you were actually paying attention to the way you worded things, and then deleting it all, just because you didn't want your friends to read it. Of course they already had, and I don't know, I've blocked their responces from my mind, and they, just like all people do, have forgotten about it, of course. I mean, they only read it once, and then it was gone, two days after showing up.
If my friends did something like that I'd probably forget too....it's...human nature afterall.
To forget those things that make us uncomfortable, and let's face it, who doesn't get uncomfortable when discussing religion or...political views...or just feelings in general?
I've often wondered how many lies we, as human beings believe just because the truth is uncomfortable, or is something we don't like.
No, I shouldn't say lies really, I should say "Untruths". That word fits much better.
That's how magicians/illusionists work really. They rely upon people seeing what they want to see. I've seen it, they misdirect your attention so that you miss what really happens and it leaves you thinking what they want you to think.
How many times have people in history's attention been misguided. I can think of quite a few right off the bat. "The Adventures of Paul Revere" and George Washington, ect, ect...
People believe what it is they want to believe. And when you question that belief, well, of course they're going to fight. It's like the fight or flight (oh what's the word ? ...it's late at night you see...) anywho...
Of course, if I continue rambling on like this people are going to start thinking that I'm some kind of conspirortist (spelling???). Oh sure, I believe in the possibility of conspiracies. yadda yadda
haha
Ahhh...
"Blessed are we who can laugh at ourselves, for we shall never cease to be amused"
How true is that?
I myself am proud to say that I try to never take myself too seriously! haha
I'm not even sure if I seriously believe that I never take myself too seriously.
Hmm..
Puzzle that out.
You know I'm sure that everyone is probably just sick and tired of my ramblings by now, I could just go on like this all night. Between you and me dear reader, I probably will be going on like this inside my head all night and I wont get a wink of sleep.
I really haven't been sleeping well this summer.
It's because of the lack of mental stimulas I recieve during summer. There's nothing to really make me think and therefore I'm up all night long, unable to think because I'm not mentally tired. I just keep on thinking about random...junk...that I never sleep. I've been like that ever since elementry school.
Oh how I truelly despise summer holidays.
Blech.
*sigh* In all this rambling nonsense, I'd forgotten the true reason I had started writing this blog which was just to test out the html I added so that the black writing would show up. Well, I guess it's time to test my hypothesis.
All well...
Good night fellow blogger.

Let us see....

Goodness me, It has been so long since I've written/typed in this blog. I really don't remember what it (my blog) looks like haha.
I think it's pretty safe to say that none of my friends ever write in theirs any more, or check out mine any longer. I'd be surprised if any of my friends even remember about it. Hmm.
I don't mind though. If I dont have to worry about what my friends will be reading then I have greater freedom in writing whatever I want to.
That's great as far as I'm concerned. It was hard writing in a personality my friends expect. You see, I have very different groups of friends, and I act differently in each group. Just like I act differently in front of my parents, or like I act differently in front of teachers.
It's sooo funny listning to my friends talk about me to each other, especially when they all have very different opinions about me. Very different opinions.
All well.
I do prefer being alone than with my friends (You know, between me and whoever else reads this).
Nothing agaist my friends, but I find it very draining to spend time with them. I enjoy it, but I'm always exauhsted (<-I know I spelt that wrong) afterwards.
Anywho. I guess I better write something teenager like, just to reassure everyone out there that I am a somewhat normal teenage girl...Blech, haha.
Yeah, I broke up with my second boyfriend. Well, I didn't want to hurt him, but I really wanted to break it off with him. I'm in High School, I don't want a serious relationship, especially with my second boyfriend. There's something you need to know, I'm one of those people who automatically scoffs at teenage "love". I just don't believe it. Now, if any teenager out there reads this and gets offended at that statement because you're in "love" with your current bf/gf, I'm sorry. That's just my opinion.
I believe love is something too strong for someone as young as us to truelly comprehend. Of course, I also believe in different types of love. Like brotherly love. That, you can feel easily enough. OR. Religiously (I know, I spelt that wrong too). I love everyone religiously, in a way that, I wouldn't want to hurt them or see them get hurt, and to where I have the ability to respect everyone, and forgive them if they sin against me. That I believe. But the love I don't believe a teenager can truelly feel is the kind that...you read see in romance movies, or something along that line. Actually, I truelly believe that few people, if they really think about it, love anyone that way.
Now then, when my boyfriend said he loved me, that's the way he meant. I couldn't laugh in his face, because I believe he believed that's how he felt. I don't believe he felt that, but I believe he believed he did. So, I can't laugh in his face. That's rude, and hurtful. So...I sorta cheated my way out. I used the word "love" in the whole religious context. But since he said it, I knew I had to break up with him. That might sound a bit cold, but truelly, it was for the best. Better break up with him then and there then let him get even more emotionally attatched and such, then end up breaking up on bad terms right? But still, I didn't want to break up with him. So I got him to break up with me instead, that way, he'd feel better about it, and I still got what I wanted. But no, don't worry, I didn't act like a jerk. I just told him I couldn't go out anywhere with him, till he felt that it would just be better if we sepperated (once again, spelling, I know..), he "didn't want to, but felt it would be better" ect.
Anyways...now is everyone convinced that I'm a semi-normal teen girl?
(Plus I was rather proud how I handled the whole break up, I thought I just might mention that ;) )...
Now then, let us see...What else to talk about???
I could tell you what I'm doing right now, but if I'm correct you probably don't give a rat's _ _ _ about that. I know I don't care what ya'll're doing right now. NO offence, but it's the truth, and I'm sure you can appreciate (<- spelling right? Eh, I'll have to look up correct spelling of some of these words >.<) the truth. I don't like all of that "beat around the bush" , "sugar coating" crap. Oh sure I believe in tact, but, be honest, seriously. (Even if your use of honesty leads people to believe the wrong thing ;). )
Haha, sorry. I'll admit, that does sound a bit hypocritic.
You know, I've probably jinxed myself by saying that none of my friends ever check these things any longer. I wouldn't be incredibly surprised if one of my friends does go to read this sometime this summer, and then I'll have quite a bit of explaing to do. Haha, yep, that would be just my luck...
Oh well, I'll deal with that when and if it comes...
I like writing in black, but because of my background it's a bit hard to read black. I'll have to see what I can do about that. Yeah...now that I think about it I'm sure that there's something I could do about it.
All well. I guess I'll finish this entry....I might start up a new one as soon as I enter this one, but I'm tired of writing in this box. Haha, sorry, I get bored a bit easily...ok...really easily. I need a fresh slate to type on because I'm feeling a bit claustrophobic writing on this one still. (I don't know if that makes any since to you, but it does to me).
But then again I might not start a new one. I don't know. I'll decide after I enter this one.