Let us see....

Goodness me, It has been so long since I've written/typed in this blog. I really don't remember what it (my blog) looks like haha.
I think it's pretty safe to say that none of my friends ever write in theirs any more, or check out mine any longer. I'd be surprised if any of my friends even remember about it. Hmm.
I don't mind though. If I dont have to worry about what my friends will be reading then I have greater freedom in writing whatever I want to.
That's great as far as I'm concerned. It was hard writing in a personality my friends expect. You see, I have very different groups of friends, and I act differently in each group. Just like I act differently in front of my parents, or like I act differently in front of teachers.
It's sooo funny listning to my friends talk about me to each other, especially when they all have very different opinions about me. Very different opinions.
All well.
I do prefer being alone than with my friends (You know, between me and whoever else reads this).
Nothing agaist my friends, but I find it very draining to spend time with them. I enjoy it, but I'm always exauhsted (<-I know I spelt that wrong) afterwards.
Anywho. I guess I better write something teenager like, just to reassure everyone out there that I am a somewhat normal teenage girl...Blech, haha.
Yeah, I broke up with my second boyfriend. Well, I didn't want to hurt him, but I really wanted to break it off with him. I'm in High School, I don't want a serious relationship, especially with my second boyfriend. There's something you need to know, I'm one of those people who automatically scoffs at teenage "love". I just don't believe it. Now, if any teenager out there reads this and gets offended at that statement because you're in "love" with your current bf/gf, I'm sorry. That's just my opinion.
I believe love is something too strong for someone as young as us to truelly comprehend. Of course, I also believe in different types of love. Like brotherly love. That, you can feel easily enough. OR. Religiously (I know, I spelt that wrong too). I love everyone religiously, in a way that, I wouldn't want to hurt them or see them get hurt, and to where I have the ability to respect everyone, and forgive them if they sin against me. That I believe. But the love I don't believe a teenager can truelly feel is the kind that...you read see in romance movies, or something along that line. Actually, I truelly believe that few people, if they really think about it, love anyone that way.
Now then, when my boyfriend said he loved me, that's the way he meant. I couldn't laugh in his face, because I believe he believed that's how he felt. I don't believe he felt that, but I believe he believed he did. So, I can't laugh in his face. That's rude, and hurtful. So...I sorta cheated my way out. I used the word "love" in the whole religious context. But since he said it, I knew I had to break up with him. That might sound a bit cold, but truelly, it was for the best. Better break up with him then and there then let him get even more emotionally attatched and such, then end up breaking up on bad terms right? But still, I didn't want to break up with him. So I got him to break up with me instead, that way, he'd feel better about it, and I still got what I wanted. But no, don't worry, I didn't act like a jerk. I just told him I couldn't go out anywhere with him, till he felt that it would just be better if we sepperated (once again, spelling, I know..), he "didn't want to, but felt it would be better" ect.
Anyways...now is everyone convinced that I'm a semi-normal teen girl?
(Plus I was rather proud how I handled the whole break up, I thought I just might mention that ;) )...
Now then, let us see...What else to talk about???
I could tell you what I'm doing right now, but if I'm correct you probably don't give a rat's _ _ _ about that. I know I don't care what ya'll're doing right now. NO offence, but it's the truth, and I'm sure you can appreciate (<- spelling right? Eh, I'll have to look up correct spelling of some of these words >.<) the truth. I don't like all of that "beat around the bush" , "sugar coating" crap. Oh sure I believe in tact, but, be honest, seriously. (Even if your use of honesty leads people to believe the wrong thing ;). )
Haha, sorry. I'll admit, that does sound a bit hypocritic.
You know, I've probably jinxed myself by saying that none of my friends ever check these things any longer. I wouldn't be incredibly surprised if one of my friends does go to read this sometime this summer, and then I'll have quite a bit of explaing to do. Haha, yep, that would be just my luck...
Oh well, I'll deal with that when and if it comes...
I like writing in black, but because of my background it's a bit hard to read black. I'll have to see what I can do about that. Yeah...now that I think about it I'm sure that there's something I could do about it.
All well. I guess I'll finish this entry....I might start up a new one as soon as I enter this one, but I'm tired of writing in this box. Haha, sorry, I get bored a bit easily...ok...really easily. I need a fresh slate to type on because I'm feeling a bit claustrophobic writing on this one still. (I don't know if that makes any since to you, but it does to me).
But then again I might not start a new one. I don't know. I'll decide after I enter this one.