Hum de dum....thinking....

Ok, so let me think about something serious to type about. I really don't like going on about nonsense. Unless I'm trying to find a way to ease boredom or to busy my hands.

You know what they say:

"Idle hands are the devil's tools"

Although personally, I don't agree with that, not completely anyways....I was thinking about this and I believe that it's the idle mind that is Satan's greatest tool.

That probably sounds a lot deeper than it really is though. I mean, anybody can think up something as simple as that.

Most times, poeple don't want to, or believe themselves incapable of thinking about the profound.
The biggest question I guess is where to start.

On a skip from my mind...Humans are naturally selfish creatures, it's to be expected really. It's kind of like a survival instinct. At the beginning of time, you had to take what you could get, when you could get it. If there was food easily available, go get it, and it stands to reason that more that one person would go for the same thing more than once, the result of course being, fighting. There wouldn't be enough to go around for everyone, people were too premative or too desperate too really want to share anyways. Therefore, only those selfish and strong enough to fight for everything they needed would suvive. See what you need, take it!

And of course, as there were more luxurious things, or pretty things coming into play (like rocks or shells [just kidding]) that philosophy would change to see what you want and take it .

People are selfish and have been for ages;

the only right law is the one that benifits them

the only true justice is the one that sides with them

the only rightful king, is the one they put there themselves



People will never truelly be satisfied.



I'm doing it again...rambling that is....

Well, there 's not really much to be said. And I don't like to waste time at all.

That's really a bit hypocritical of myself though, because I do waste time. I don't like to, but man am I lazy.

(And here I go about to contradict myself again but....) I DID 90 PUSH-UPS LAST NIGHT!!!!

YES!

go me !

hahaha

I usually do about 70 at night, but, I wasn't tired when I got to 70 last night so I kept going, and then at 86 I started to slow down but I was determined to make it to 90. Which I did. So yay! ^^

I really must stop contradicting myself. I do it all the time. I can never say or think anything without some small annoying voice in the back of my head pointing out every flaw in anything I say or think. I'm constantly arguing points back and forth in my head. It does help me see issues from both sides, and I guess it keeps me fair whenever I'm mad at someone and helps me forgive them easier.

But dad-gum (!) if it isn't incredibly annoying!!! (and shut-up, I know I spelt incredably wrong, both times)

I'm not sure about the point of this entry

Well, I was......doing nothing really last night. But then the urge to get up and write came down upon me, so that's what I did. And I realized something, well, not realy realized because on some level I was always aware of doing it on some sub-level of my consciosness, but I'm rambling. What I "realized" I had been doing is that, when writing, I was writing in a rather paranoid fashion. I've always written as if I expected someone else to end up reading my thoughts, and so I've never really written anything too deep, ot too telling, and furthermore, I found myself constantly trying to explain my thoughts, why I felt whichever way I felt about whatever particular topic I was writing about. Of course, I had always been aware I was doing this, but it never really occured how...paranoid...such an action is. I know that that is one of the reasons I've never been able to write in a journal.

Although...I once had a journal on my computer where I was completely able to let everything out. Then I'd save the file and move it into the recycle bin. Of course, I had typed in big letters across how no one but me should read this and I threatened anyone who did betray my trust in such a way that they'd suffer in ways unimaginable (!).

>.<

Okay, so I admit it, haha, I'm a completely paranoid being.

But really, everybody is paranoid on some basic level. Everyone's always afraid of being caught doing something weird, inappropriate, unexpected (sp?), ect..ect..and the list goes on.
And it's basic human nature to want to look your best and be appreciated. Although, I think I don't care so much as that. Nope, I'm more into keeping to myself , having my privacy. I don't really care a bit what others think about me, just as long as I don't have to explain myself to them. It's much easier to say that you're fine then to say something is bothering you and then have people hounding you constantly and asking you what's wrong.
Feh.
I've never been any good at writing introductions or conclusions. Once I get writing I do pretty good, but the beggining and ending have always been the most tedious part of writing for me.
So, Don't feel offended if I don't bother to write an ending to my entries and instead stop
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